Ayahuasca

Our Dutch site on Ayahuasca, Peyote and Iboga: www.degewijdereis.nl

We regularly organize 2 day healingweekends with Ayahuasca. Most of the weekends are in Dutch, but we also have planned a few weekends especially for people from other countries (which will be teached in English).

The 2 day healingweekends include holotropic breathwork, Focussing/Voice Dialogue during sharing circles, bodywork voice expression and an ayahuascaceremony on the second day. The price for a whole weekend is 245 euros including light meals. Staying overnight costs 15 euros.

2012:

25-26 February

12-13 May

27-28 October

Sweatlodge/Ayahuasca weekends:

2012: 11-12 August, 22-23 September

On the first day is the sweatloge ceremony and on the second day the Ayahuasca ceremony.  Costs are 185 euros, staying overnight 15 euros per night.

Individual Ayahuasca or Iboga ceremonies:

It is possible to be facilitated individually in a Sacred Voyage. We have four loving teammembers with lots of experience in facilitating ceremonies. They all four have different backgrounds like in creative art, therapeutic settings, family constellations, meditation, shamanism and holistic healing.

An individual ceremony can be planned any time. Costs are 250 euros per person (Ayahuasca, 1 day) or 750 euros per person (Iboga, 2-3 days).

For dates, prices and/or registration please send us an email: info@degewijdereis.nl and we will normally reply within 3 days.

In our spiritual/therapeutic practice in the Netherlands called The Sacred Voyage we work with the sacred brew Ayahuasca. Below here you find the report of the researchproject 2009 with 70 participants:

This is what people wrote us who have made their Sacred Voyage on Ayahuasca with us (Copyright © The Sacred Voyage):

Michael: ‘I had a feeling of heaviness and fear deep in my belly. At the beginning I was a little bit scared because the voyage before I had a very deep and powerful experience. I „only“ had the first glass but this was absolutely enough for me and even with this I had visions and intense feelings. My mind together with my ego was jumping around like a monkey and I was a little bit disappointed only drinking one glass. Afterwards I learned and experienced it was the right way this time.’

Recently we guided a lovely Turkish couple, Lev & Cey. Here you can read their experience with the Motherplant Ayahuasca (guided bt dutch Ayahuasquero Erik Spaans)

Below here you can download an article written by the dutch Ayahuascaguide Lars Faber with the challenging title: the Secret of Life. Find out what Ayahuasca has to do with that...:

Vidir: ‘Before I did the Sacred Voyage I had taken various psychedelics, I had experienced completely falling into my self and to get stuck in my own pain various of times, I had experienced it working therapeutically, I had experienced age regression into something before my birth. So I was really expecting a fire-show expessially since a lot of the experiences I had read about involved really mystical things, even meeting god. How ever when it came down to it the holotropic breath-work was the weirdest part of the experience, there I lost control of my hands so they where spastic and I became an infant and more experiences in that nature, but I can actually recall this part of the Voyage less than the ayahuasca part of it. I needed some time to recover after this since I was feeling very light headed and strange in the body. After a walk and some time we started the ceremony. After the second glass I was feeling very mellow. I had some tingling sensation in my body and had some very minor visual changes, just a little color extra here and there. I started to get in connection with my feeling gradually but never intensely and it would come and go. From very early on I a had a little nausea but I could not puke I even tried to force me but that did not work. I think after over two hours I got a extra dosage of the ayahuasca since I was going through such a soft journey and then after a few minutes I finally puked, José came and helped me she stroked my back and gave me love and caring. Afterwards I felt so good, something had gone and I started to really get in touch with my emotions and cry from time to time and José would con-fort me witch was so good and so much what I needed. I never had any visions or hallucinations that I can remember. I was a bit disappointed with that for some time but then I have realized that this is exactly what I needed as José said. Really what I find the most interesting with this whole experience is not the voyage it self but the aftermath. I feel so free, I have never felt so free in my life. I feel like something that has been bothering me for as long as I can remember has finally left me. I'm at ease, I feel ecstatic for most of the day and if I feel bad or stressed I usually just have to take a moment to look inside and I find that peace that came over me in the Voyage. So far I always calm down in the night and I have started to fall a sleep earlier and waking up sooner in the morning witch is great. I'll admit that I'm always a little afraid that this great feeling might disappear one day but I have realized that even if it will these dimensions never leave I just loose connection with them so I just have to get in touch with them again and of corse try to do things to keep in touch with them. Thank you all so much for this life transferring experience. I will most definitely do it again, I would not mind doing one straight a way but I'm going to get used to this new way of being first before I go even deeper.

I thought José's guidance was perfect, she was always spot on with what I needed from her even if I did not know my self. That helped a lot in releasing old pain. She was very loving and caring and she just allowed me to talk when I did and so with out responding most of the time, just listening and I think that was extremely good because I think I just needed to express my self with out any kind of reflection. I really love her after this experience with her she gave me so much so when ever I think of her my heart fill's up with love.’

Here you can read the thrilling report of Michael's first Sacred Voyage.

Michael writes: 'I came wanting to experience the Ayahuasca journey in order to resolve a difficult childhood, teenage years, my life as a young man and the questions I still asked. [...] So what has changed? My body is more flexible (it feels younger) and “old pains” have gone, even my posture has changed.  My body tells me what it wants to eat and not, I feel what should or should not eat, I have no desire to drink alcohol, essentially I am still fasting. My mind thinks less (sometimes it just does not think), is less judgemental about the world (!), I have become more aware of the world as it is (and not just as I once saw it).

Read more below

Neil: ‘The setting was perfect for the ceremony. The area around the location was quite, the guesthouse well equipped and comfortable and the ceremonial space was quite good (amount of space, volume of music, requirements such as cushions, etc...).

The first day was very effective at liberating the child within and

give me the necessary direction on what I'd work on in the next day. The breath work did bring up certain thoughts and emotions which are usually not that present in my day to day living. The sharing was also very important to break the ice and feel at ease with the people around me.

Taking an overall view on the effect of Ayahuasca, the care of Erik and Andre and the sharing of this experience with the group, the

experience was a very positive one. While my Ayahuasca was not a particularly strong one, I still felt I've benefited from it, and I'm

sure that the benefit doesn't simply last in the next few days after the voyage.

Erik did a wonderful job in terms of performing the retreat in English. His spoken English is of a very good level and he managed to convey the messages he wanted to deliver to us in a very clear way. Besides that, I constantly felt a sense of reassurance through Erik's presence, making it easier to face the tension before the ceremony itself. And whilst voyaging, I felt truly cared for by Erik, and also by Andre, as I'll mention below.

The fact that this was done with a group in which everyone shared

hisher story and reason for the voyage helped to build an atmosphere of care and empathy for each other, and it was quite a joy for me to see those coming with a heavy baggage leave with a smile on their face and with hope in their heart.

Speaking about the experience is difficult, but if I had to sum it up

in a sentence, it would be that for me the experience brought out much needed love and comfort for the child within.’

Wilma: This voyage was a very earthy one; one that helps me be aware of my body in a very real way. The message I received is that My Body is Mine and Only I am able to Feed it Well. But before I reached this state the Devine Ayahusca showed me -again-, how the pain ruled my life and body. I was so busy lying in my dying bed that I could not make a move forward. I was not able to stand on my feet and when I succeeded it happened for a few moments and then I collapsed again. So the first part of my journey was really a struggle for life. A very important experience. Suddenly I felt a POWER, a SPIRIT, coming inside of me, to get up -still struggling- and than I start to encourage myself. I start whispering: "Yes, Yes, Yes...." The whispering became louder and louder, till it became such a very large and crystalclear "YeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeS!", to send it right into Heaven, the Cosmos. I sat straight up and I felt proud I had conquered the pain. What a JOY, What a VICTORY!  

I will keep standing on my feet and follow them where I am directed to.

I will folow my feet with passion.

I wll dance, sing, and create with passion.

Thank you Great Spirit, Thank you Great Creator, Thank you Great Force

 for sending me the Devine Ayahuasca.

The Devine Ayahuasca that teach me that it is worth living on Mother Earth.

"Yes, Devine Ayahuasca, Yes, Yes, YeeeeeeeeeeeS!I love you! 

Suzanne: ‘Before the Ayahuascaceremony I had a vage notion of something that was missing in my life, but the night before the ceremony I woke up in the middle of the night with very clear questions. Does true love exist, what is my purpose here and am I on the right track? Fairly rapid after ingesting the brew, a splendid black and blue dragon appeared at my right and rose high above me, changing into half a man, half a snake. He kissed me, saying: this is your promise. The overwhelming feelings of love made my lips tremble and tears streamed over my cheeks, and I was captured in a dance of the middle, between all contradictions, forces and contra-forces, in which it seemed to me as if God wanted to discover himself, en celebrate. Love that embraced each and everyone and everything. Then, there was nothing and literally I was reborn, I cried like baby and felt who I am, in essence.

It was very nice to feel so safe supported by Lars and Sangeeni who were sitting next to me, I felt that I knew (as a baby), that the world was to be a difficult and tough place to be in for me. At that moment, I became the child I was back than, and I had to cry a lot because lots of animal-suffering was going through me, it went on and on, and despite that, I was in a state of bliss, of supreme happiness, connected with the heart of heaven. Afterwards I was very tired, like an old lady. The night after that (Sunday night after the ceremony) I woke up in the middle of the night in a very beautiful green fairytale-forest in which colours danced. A little further on I noticed a patch of frightening, black forest, and I wasn’t afraid and capered there. Then I was back in my body. The next day I found the stones that I had been searching for so long, and , by the way, I felt that I am completely in order in the place I am in now and with the work that I do, together going down this road, with my buddy, my boyfriend. Thanks a lot for enabling me to have this experience.’

Alice: ‘It is incredible how wonderful and targeted the motherplant communicated with me. The very first image was the plant itself, which introduced itself to me in a very respectful way and showed me that in essence we are all one. After that, an impressive game of Question and Answer started, which gave me a tremendous amount of insights, which I am still digesting two weeks after. For a long time, I was questioning the relation between my body and my mind. During this travel, I’ve received an answer. It’s unbelievable how subtle and focussed the motherplant shared her essence with me.’

Tamara: ‘During the holotropic breathing on Saturday, I had already experienced lots of grieve. Also, I had lots of difficulties speaking in public, but my fellow-travellers received me very well. And the tears kept on coming, but it felt very good.

On Sunday, my Voyage was very tough, I went through very deep, old layers of pain in myself, and there were lots of youth-traumas waiting for me. But my biggest fear came up quite well. To die alone, and this I felt and dealt with up to the core of my being. At that moment I was held so lovingly and I overcame my fear. And dying is really something very beautiful. And especially when I was allowed to feel Ayahuasca through my whole being. It was as if I was flying on a very soft cloud of love. And I was totally embraced by it. I found it very difficult to face my own fears. Because it was something I really didn’t want in the first place, but obviously there was no escaping it and I was so very happy receiving the warm support of Sangeeni and Lars.

Now, after 2 weeks, I still feel very good inside, completely warm with energy. And it is coming and going with ups and downs, but the most important I found the little (hurt) girl inside of me, and together we are now a very strong couple. 1 team, 1 mission. And my whole being is able to live again, and I can live again without holding back. I can now work on my goals again! Thanks Lars, Tanja and Sangeeni, for coming onto my trail, for helping me refind my little girl! I want to thank you a lot for your love.’

Richard: ‘After I saw grandma Ayahuasca passing by, I wasn’t able to make a Voyage into her world. Also, I felt very nauseous and I wanted to deal with that first, by envisioning that the brew was allowed to untie anything that I was allowed to let go of that afternoon. After that I was able to go into her world, it was something I really cannot describe. I went there with a Voyage-intention [awakening] which made it a little easier for me. All the time, there were dimensions which were completely alien and then I heard a voice saying ‘you can also stay here’. Yes, that was an option, but I really wanted to know whether there was something new after going through it. From the first moment I met my fear, I was fully confident that I could deal with it. Time after time I was pierced by sentinels from the matrix. At a certain moment I went after my fear of myself which made them retract. This lasted until all of a sudden I was at a place where I felt right at home, and where grandmas voice was very clear and pure.

Even now, a feeling of unprecedented harmony comes into my mind. I was at the dungeons of the soul, and really it’s a paradise down there [really it is indescribable, but this is my attempt at putting it into words ]. I have met my inner child, it was still very young. We are now united in my heart. Whether I have awakened, well… , it only added more questions that enable searching and finding more anwers. In grandmas world, I’ve raised questions on which she anwered: “Richard, take it easy, step by step”. For me the next step is another Sacred Voyage. And of course, giving my inner child my attention. Together we go on in living on our beautiful patch on the planet Earth.’

Elaine: ‘I think I’ve become more soft, my inner conversation is better and more empathic, more like myself. I am very happy thinking back of the experience and reliving the emotions. I’ve had complete conversations with myself that I didn’t find easy all the time, but the result was very nice. I enjoy being me and for that I am very grateful. The best thing of the Voyage was landing back on earth gently.

All those beautiful, wonderful, lovely people around me. Beautiful music, all those beautiful colours. Conversations I couldn’t yet attend, but the love I could see and feel in everything was healing and miraculous at the same time. I went through a scala of emotions, sadness and joy where there together in the same moment and I really enjoyed it being there and not overwhelming me but just allowing me to attend, with me, and I could see the totality of the scene. I’ve also felt wonderfully small and I’ve felt how much joy I was experiencing, I’ve felt this because of a permanent smile on my face which I didn’t recognize as my own. It was an old smile of a smaller me, and it felt good!! The all-convincing feeling of love and truth have left me in wonders and made me very happy. This is what it is all about, to be able to join and experience this together. In freedom and love together! ThanXxxs’.

Willy: “Fear knocks on the door, trust opens: nobody there”. Never I knew before how to deal with fear with an open visor. During the Sacred Voyage it happened. Ayahuasca has led me fantastically. Later, after the ceremony, I drew a tarotcard which said literally: “you’ve conquered your fears and now you are entering a new phase with new adventures”. This text resonates in all my cells. I know it is true. I have really left something behind. 

Nynke: “The days after the ceremony I felt so much more space in my solar plexus. Any way, part of the knot sitting there has resolved, it has vanished.

A friend of mine said afterwards that I was walking differently and immediately I knew what he meant. Of course I had to check it first, so I asked him: how, and he said: like a child. And I also felt that quite literally. More of me has become child. It’s not always very practical, because often is is frightened and angry and rejected and lonely. But if all is just allowed to exist, I get so much in return! The child that is feeling, crying, enjoying, longing, laughing, dancing, singing, ALIFE!’

Solly: ‘Lady Ayahuasca came to me through glowing gold light from the candles which, I swear, flickered in perfect harmony with the wonderful and haunting sounds from the turntable. She assured me that I was doing OK and not to fret at all. When I met my gatekeepers, I realized for the first time that they were no strangers as I had met them before in vague dreams. They appeared subservient and rather than permit me to see anything, I was allowed to see anything I chose. I did just that and was overwhelmed by a light/energy(??) that permeated my entire being! I am still digesting this ‘vision’ but I was given a distinct message that I hold sacred and prefer to keep this to myself for now. I left the ceremony more whole than when I came and reassured that  my current path is the right one. I’m very grateful to have had this experience and extremely so towards our lovely and loving hostess Tanja and our two very capable guides Lars and Ivar.’

Gerard: ‘Pfew, many times I’ve tried to write down what I’ve gone through during the Voyage, but whatever I wrote, It wasn’t able to describe the exact nature of what I’ve experienced. It cannot be put into words. I’ve experienced the Universal Truth (not sensory, but well, how did I manage?) of all human beings and from that place I found myself a lot more supported in my personal life in every days reality. And: connected to others, knowing that we all are that Truth. Although I am tremendously grateful for having this experience (thanks to all of you, my fellow travellers and Ayahuasca), there is no feeling of victory or pride of having conquered something: it really is in each and everyone of us, but not all of us is searching for it, or allowed to discover it. But it’s a fundamental thing present in every human being.

Mart: ‘First of all, I want to thank you a lot for making this possible. Your work is good, the intention is pure. That gives empowerment and trust. It was a very enriching experience. Coming down is probably the most intensive part of the Voyage for me. I have enjoyed the music, I danced, I played with the cats, spend time with some friends. I slept a lot, dreamed, made my body flexible in order to be able to bare the spirit again.

I’ve noticed various changes. I am not even half way through. I am still wide open, some people notice this. I dream intensively. I even remember that I am dreaming while in my dream, and I an stay in it, and remember afterwards what I’ve dreamed. Some dreams from earlier I dream again, they taste different, more full of love. I also get up differently. I am not afraid anymore. For nothing really! Not for the things happening in this world, not for the short-sightedness (it takes one to know one). I am no longer afraid to speak, to say things. Also forgiving is giving more peace and satisfaction, that has become easier too. Also toward myself.’

Ronald: ‘The holotropic breathing allready brought me a lot, and has prepared me well to the Voyage on Sunday. And the Voyage in itself was very hefty with lots of turbulence. It was a heavy task, and I went through lots of sorrow from my childhood. The thing that stuck to me most, is my cosmic lesson in humility. At a certain moment it’s impossible not to surrender to the loving force of the Ayahuasca that wants to take care of you and help you heal. And that by itself is bringing so many deep felt hurt. Also, during this Voyage I’ve recollected many lost parts of me, and integrated them into my heart, which were before apparently damaged and staying in other realms. I have not seen many colourful images of heavenly dimensions, but that was absolutely not necessary. The enormously force of Love of heavenly dimensions I have been allowed to feel deeply. I have gotten exactly what I needed at that moment. Nothing more, nothing less.’ 

Pieter: ‘Not before the ringing of a spoon in the Ayahuasca-bottle anouncing the last pouring, all buttons where pressed in my system! Panic got the better of me. I had not felt anything, not cleared anything. Did I come from Belgium all that way to experience nothing? At that moment Lars looked at me and asked me whether he should come. I was so happy for not having to ask for that, and Lars just feeling this as from a “deep inner knowing”. Him holding my hand between his two big hands felt like the key, like permission to open all locks to my inner sanctum. Carried by the right intentions, a lot of old, stuck emotions and frustrations were set free and this all through my Journey. Finally I dared to be completely honest and open to myself, and I could welcome these emotions, which I had kept in the dark for so long.

Also my future daughter passed the revue. I felt how safe and warm she was feeling in mamas love belly, and how we became one, after which a beautiful blue glow filled my whole being. The heavenly music in the background showed another facet of my Voyage: that I have been supported and protected by a great number of loving creatures, Angels, or whatever you want to call the wonderful energies. Did I manage to defrost my soul? No, but for sure, as Lars himself has said to me: I’ve made a giant leap forwards. Thanks for allowing me to experience this in your beautiful home!’

Anne: ‘Well, it all went quite differently from what I had expected. First of all I wanted to force myself through all kinds of layers and the result was me not getting through. I wasn’t at the position of the Trueborn Queen. I have had more insights instead of being present in the experience itself. I asked Ayahuasca to help me throw myself into the experience (not literally, but eventually I did throw up)…

On the day itself  I haven’t noticed a lot of change, but the week after and maybe even still, I have surrendered more to life. I’ve done lots of crying, as part of a process of letting go I guess. A feeling like: I give up. I really don’t know anymore. I cannot come up with anything anymore. OK, come on life. Come and get me, emotions. Be welcome, fears. What part I owe to the Ayahuasca I really can’t tell for a fact. But on a subtle level I am sure that it’s contributing.’

Claudio: ‘Ok, here we go. This has been a truly Sacred Voyage, that I shared with my brother. As we were getting in touch with our inner child we also behaved as children. A bit naughty. The Voyage on Saturday was amazing. No real different dimensions or feelings. In the beginning a bit, but my question was simple. “Where is my soul, how do I get in contact with it and with the universal energy.”  And I finally remembered the breathing as the bridge. So everytime I was out there and remembered my question the Ayahuasca made me aware of the breathing, which put me right back in my body and in the room. Which was bloody annoying in the beginning as my thoughts came back, my patterns, my feelings etc.,  till I got it. My soul is in my body. If I connect my mind, through the breathing with my body I can be in tune. And I realized that I moved my mind away from my body when emotions became too big. It feels like my accident when I was 4 was the first time. Traumatized and afraid for the sensations. But what if that is the whole reason for live? To feel the sensations, to live them and not look at them like a spectator in a cinema. And maybe that is why there is mental and physical pain. Like the soul/body is calling the mind back. And the longer I do not listen, the bigger and more painful the call.’

Eline Farideh: ‘Yesterday I’ve made a Voyage within. In a natural way, just like the shamans of the Amazone have been doing for centuries. It has been an adventurous trip, a Voyage to my soul. Full of trust and safety I was meeting face to face with Eline Farideh. But first with my pain and sadness, but also with my luck and love. With lots of joy and with a humorous attitude towards life. This Voyage was accompanied by heavenly music. I found myself being carried away on sounds, colours, singing, and found within the beauty that goes hand in hand with sadness. Every sound brought new insights, moved by the fullness of the music. Tears and laughter go together. The line dividing them is paper-thin. The silence truly brought me to a standstill, in complete humility. For all that is. Life is to good to deprive yourself of your soul. Of feeling with all your senses. The opening and discovery of how special and refined life really is.’

PS. Letters form the words, but the experience is beyond description.

Erica: ‘I wanted to let you know that again I’ve enjoyed last Saturday tremendously. It was lovely to be lifted by the music and let the Ayahuasca heal parts of my body and my mind. Once I came to Lars with the Theme of ‘basic trust’ and that in essence, despite of all that I’ve done, I never let others (especially my partner) never come really closeby, there is always kind of a distance out of fear of being hurt and having to face life alone in the end. It is becoming much more mild, even though it is still there.

Tanja being present last Saturday was wonderful to me. Before already I noticed her presence in the background, and how she supports the Journeys. Now I could experience her in her role of guide: loving kindness and beautiful in her own authenticity.’

Ellen: ‘Well, yeah, the Voyage, it is still hard for me to put it into words. I have seen a lot of myself. I have never experienced anything like this to the core of every fibre in my body. I have never felt this grounded and present in my body, and it was great. I have never heard music intensely like this and never before have I been able to hear this clearly. And I have never drank anything so vile before.

While wrestling my superego, Lars gave me the golden words: “If you do not succeed in getting answers, you’ll get your money back.” After that I was able to rest my superego and I was able to go on. Of course this wasn’t about money, but about recognition of  my superego Gatekeeper.  The “all is well” attitude is very nice and feels sincere.

I was touched by noticing that Tanja was even waiting for me in front of the toilet in order to escort me back up. Heart in the right place. Keep guiding, it suits you. Lot’s of mother energy. Beautiful.

Now I have written some, if I write more it becomes too much a lyrical story about how great and all it was for me. But Lars, I really believe this is a magic potion. And I will gladly rejoin your free heaven for catching my breath again. I can go on with myself again. Thanks to both of you, love Ellen.

Annemieke: ‘My Voyage started with cleaning my energy-channels from the inside out. Being able to feel that much was very special by itself and the communication with Ayahuasca which asked me lovingly whether it was alright like this and not too heavy, she was very kind to me. Then some sort of quiescence came over me, just being, so beautiful and lovingly as I have never experienced anything before and all was white or clear and bright.

Then meeting the special birds, who are the Gatekeepers, started. Having long wings in all kinds of colours and they were so full of love. Then I asked: “what is your function?” They responded: “we guide the baby Jesus”. Filled with awe I wanted to leave again. This because I noticed they were doing their job very well and that it is so great what they are doing. But then they asked me: ‘But what did you come for in the first place?’ And I answered: ‘I just wanted to play with her.’

I was allowed inside and could play whenever I wanted to and I was allowed to take her with me, because they were convinced I would see to her safe return because I had understood what they do and me having lots of respect for that. This beautiful imagery is still fresh on my mind and I will really never forget it. A while after that the Voyage changed considerably. The Ayahuasca taught me how to transform pain and that I should be respected for doing this and especially that I need to respect myself for doing this and I got to have the necessary pain, that, if I resided with it, after a while transformed to enormous strength. And I saw how most people flee from their pain and the people who have pain and that the transformation is in this and not just in experiencing joy. Very educative.

I have experienced this as a very transforming experience and I have the feeling that it is still proceeding in my body. Again thank you for doing this and allowing me this experience.

Bart: ‘Post to the experience Lars words really hit me: “You can/may not compare yourself and your Voyage to anybody else, because that is useless”. I remembered that while going through my Voyage several times I realised: “Aya knows best. Whatever comes, I'll accept it".  I now know that my next Voyage will be much deeper, I just know it.  I was really resting like a little baby, Saturday and I remembered feeling: All is well. At that moment, I really didn’t need more than that. Already I long for my next Voyage!’

Annemiek: ‘Aside from what I already told the group, experiencing “absolute nothingness”, I cannot think of another name for it, has made an enormous impact, and it still does. Nothing as a word really is still too much. Less than nothing. Which is diametrically opposed to: I have not experienced anything. I really hope you can get some kind of feeling as to what I am aiming at, because for this important experience in particular words are inadequate.

Carine: ‘My Voyage – Gosh, it was relishing!! Compared to previous Voyages! My inner child has been set free! I thought it would take several Voyages to get past the Gatekeepers. But I have done it alone – really it seems that I am the strong woman Lars told me I am after all…

There was a moment that I was sitting very tough and in war-position with a metal warrior harness on – nobody will come through this if they intend to hurt me NO WAY – I felt so strong! Still I do by the way… And then I met her – my little girl – she was smiling! She was joyeus,  happy! I was moved tremendously… and we’ve danced! Never before in my life have I danced in such a liberating way!

And then I saw light – from above I received light and warmth – very intense warmth in my belly – it is over – my battle has been fought – my inner child is free. My inner barrier has been completely removed and I feel completely opened – the energy is surging through my body – I feel love, love, love and joy. And looooots of gratitude – and respect and respect for Ayahuasca the magic potion. Thanks Lars, Dani, Tanja – my new life is ready for lift off and I am completely ready for it.’

Naomi: ‘My second Ayahuasca ceremony was intensive already a few days before it started. I've asked for my 1st and 2nd chakra to be cleared and that is exactly what I received. A build up of emotions prior to the very day was almost palpable. I lost my mother as a child and most of my life I've been dealing with this trauma. This time I really felt the emotion. As if everything I had done up to now was just mental research. The intensity of emotions few days before and during the session was finally real. As if I finally was able to go through it. I realised how much I loved my mother, how big our friendship was. I allowed myself to feel the love for her.

Now, two days later, I am still in that place. Allowing myself to feel our connection, her support and her friendship. I am no longer interested into analysing how my mind worked when that happened and what conclusions I have made bla bla bla. Now I just want to feel love for her because that is what I've missed most of my life. To allow myself to love her even though she left this kind of life. To allow myself to have emotions and to express them. To know that invisible is just as real as visible. To allow myself to grow up from the child I was when she left, instead of waiting for her to come back to the same place. To allow myself to feel the "phantom lymb pain" without thinking I am crazy to miss her as she definitely cannot come back. For all this I am grateful to the plant and facilitators.’ 

Margreet: ‘I asked Ayahuasca to clarify for me why my soul has opted for the dermatological disorder Darier. I have not been provided with an answer. I did see myself sitting down with a group of children around me, being an native American and Shaman. When this took place I was a man. I felt great desire to relive this experience. Also, I felt strong, healing energy flowing from my hands. A message that I am to use my hands as a tool for healing. My body appreciated the Music and my torso danced to the Music now and then. Sitting in lotus position my legs trembled for a while without me being able to control it.

I started thinking: Maybe Music will get me in the mood again. The indianmusic was very nice, but I really wasn’t in the energy-flow anymore. I rested for a while. Then I put my attention to my third eye. I got to see many shades of blue and for a little while a white light in the middle. Subsequently I saw two creamy-white hands tucked together. The meaning of this eludes me.

Last week I noticed being more aware of what and how I am acting and what really is happening. Many thanks for your dedicated loving guidance.

Kees: ‘What has struck me as different this week, is that my perception of things has changed. I cannot specify what, but something has substantially changed inside me. Such change I have never experienced before. One example: I feel compassion for Margreet in a way I am not familiar with.

Also, I the interaction with my body has changed. My body is demanding, specifially dietary, changes in my behaviour. Now, I am getting nauseous after eating food I could easily digest before. Continually I have to sense the needs of my body, before I start eating. This is something I am not quite familiar with.

Anyway, it feels great that I’ve gone through this and I’m a little proud for doing this even though I feared it before. End of September already I will join the next ceremony, for which my intention is, as I intend at this moment, healing and purification of the chakras 1,2 and 3.’

Renée: ‘Such a delightful experience and enormous gift! So very beautiful, warm, lovingly, joyeus, happy, overwhelming and also anxious. Being confronted with the essence of your soul. Being the little girl I used to be for a little while, so intensely happy, joyeus and naughtiness, feeling moved by me allowing myself to experience this. An old woman told me I am OK the way I am, that I do not have to change and that I should be proud of myself, so deeply touched.  I got to relive my birth, so that is where my claustrophobia originated. I felt myself dying, so quiet and peaceful. Then I got to see Heaven, so very beautiful! I got an answer to all my questions and I received many insights. I have fought my greatest fears and I have been rewarded by standing completely supporting myself and allowing myself to love myself and people around me again. I feel so much strength now! Such a great experience, I am really lost for words! The feeling of finding myself again! Not having to feel the illusion of being forced to live without getting what I want my whole life.   I feel I am alive, really alive! I feel this is lasting and not just for now, Ayahuasca, Thank You! And of course all the people that have supported me in this. THANK YOU!’

Daniëlle: ‘I am deeply, deeply MOVED ànd infinitely grateful for the Sacred Voyage that I have been allowed to experience with you!

AYAHUASCA truly is a SACRED sacrament!

She has given me the insight of being completely OKAY the way I am! I was searching for my sparkle and… much more. There’s so much exultation in my heart! I feel WHOLE again! (Ànd also One with ALL ;-) ha, ha, because who is fooling who? Anyway, for me life is one great feast again, because I love ME!

Such LOVE I experienced….. So moving, so much and so nice! Such a lovingly confrontation Ayahuasca gave me! It was painful and honoust, relieving so being confronted like this is in its own way delicious! Ànd, so many aspects in feeling, in insights, in healing ànd in possibilities….. I am still trying to process all this!

Ayahuasca has given me (in)sights and feelings on what really motivates me. This is confusing to me on the one hand, because the path in front of me seems so big and hefty. Am I really up to that? I can feel ‘shakers’ and ‘sparkling capers’ here. On the other hand, love is still flowing and I can feel myself moving into my strengths more and more, so how much more confirmation do I need? I will follow my exulting heart, I will go for it!’

Ilonka: ‘After Saterday soooooo many things fell in place. I keep writing down the insights I am still obtaining. I have regained LIFE, more specifically Passion and PLEASURE. Truly I realised my intention, so special, I’ve received many things in return, especially CALM and ENERHY, decisiveness and daring. Only this night I had a nightmare full of fear, it was a lucid dream and while being conscious of dreaming the dynamics I had met with Aya seemed to return. I only had to sit down in my heart, breath consciously and immediately it became quiet… I think she’s still there, but that’s only my gut-feeling.

I am deeply moved and very greatful.

So much wisdom is in Ayahuasca! NEVER I went this far with myself, and never before I was confronted so LOVINGLY and Forcefully!

Aya really puts you with both your feet on the ground, or slings you into the darkrooms of the universe if you refuse to bow your head down for her!’

Alexandra: ‘I went in as a straight woman, I came out as a lesbian, really amazing what ayahuasca can do to you! My intention was to allow my feelings of anger and grieve, the feeling of not being wanted as a kid, to give my childhood-spirit a feeling of a right to exist. Ayahuasca has brought me into contact with the misplaced part in me. I heard a voice say repeatedly ‘you love women’. I was supprised, where is that really coming from? I must have dreamed it up. But the moment that thought entered my head,  everything inside me revolted. I was directly punished for not taking this voice seriously. I started listening, got images, vague notions, everything started to fall into place. So this is what I am denying in my personality? I have been conditioned by my parents, hetero is normal and the rest of it foolish. Most probably I have part of my mothers fear for everything that has to do with femininity integrated into my being. Yes, I had to admit, I have thought about the subject a lot, women have fallen in love with me in the past, several people have spoken to me about their doubts on my sexual orientation, I’ve never denied it but also never admitted to it. I just didn’t know, I’ve never fallen in love with a woman before in the past.

And during my Voyage, I decided that I can and may be a lesbian. The free child inside of me felt heard, accepted and showed itself. Quite literally, because everything inside of me manifested itself in my playful child. It felt so uninhibited, quiet and natural! I have laughed, looked around in wonder, played with the candlelight, things that a grownup person would take for granted where magical at that moment. And I felt love, for myself and for the people around me. 

I have asked ayahuasca to open the gate to the depts. Of my soul, to the places where all unfinished dirty laundry resides. Because the Voyage felt so magical and light, at times I’ve been wondering whether I went into the depths or the higher spheres inside of me.  My intuition tells me that this doubt is of my inner critic. Ayahuasca has helped me to contact my true being and the free child inside of me, that has not been allowed enough free rule in my life, to give it full reign for a moment. And this free reign I’ll allow her in the aftermath of my quest for yin or yang or both’.

Judith: ‘Delightful, still, I am still smiling all the time despite some less pleasant activities I am dealing with at the moment. Yesterday I had a nasty feeling (old pain) in my body but the beauty of it was that I didn’t fear it anymore, I’ve allowed it to be there, I’ve remained with it and then it disappeared. I really cannot sleep well, because I am one big lump of energy, I’m really warm inside while heaving really cold feet at the same time, it’s all nothing but energy. Also I’m almost continuously in the now, which is really new to me. Really, something to recommend.’

Jules: ‘My intention was “I want to become whole again”. To bring thoughts and feelings back together. Lars suggested me to ask “In what am I not whole yet?”. During the entire Voyage I was able to stick with this intention. All the wime when I was reaching “higher realms”, I could get myself back to earth by speaking out my intention. I felt very grounded, heavy and present. I experienced being whole already. The only thing I have to do is go inside, to my core. It was and is so very simple. As i fit was all manifested to me, that is all! I’ve cried with emotion from being allowed this insight.’

Karin: ‘Fairly quickly I got to the point where I almost couldn’t breath. I was breathing as if through a straw. This remained the same for quite a while. After that I regained myself for a moment, and consequently – after the third glas – I came into a vortex that brought me to my birth. I still had to be born and at the moment I saw light coming I felt I was not welcome. I felt that I wouldn’t be able to live as a complete being here and I saw the connection with my earlier breathing difficulties. I was not allowed enough air to live.

There was a transition and I felt a lot of energy and found myself very strong. I could not release this energy and my temperature got up. I started dansing and I love moving and being guided by the Music. The choise of music was very decicive in this. I could just feel the dancing in my whole body, I could feel this was really ‘my thing’. I felt the Kundalini-energy, my body started to tremble all over. It opened me quite a bit and I felt very powerful. Went I went to lie down again I felt like an animal of force, nothing could happen to me anymore. I felt a very strong force to survive.’

Brunhilde: ‘My First (Santo Daime) experience with ayahuasca was very pleasant, the second (Santo Daime) very fearful, this last mentioned experience being the reason for me for deciding to come to Lars for the third experience (in a small group of people and with more personal attention available).

 ‘I was determined after what I had heard during the introduction, bot to be blinded by the light, but to remain in darkness in order to search for my theme and healing. As a good girl I remained detirmened – because it was recommended – to keep my eyes closed 99% of time, and I didn’t get up even once and everytime the light was lurking from the distance (in all it’s glory), I asked my subconsious to search for my theme; rejection. By the way, my subconscious changed this to ‘self-rejection’ from the start.

I also kept my hand on my stomach/heart and called out loud my intention: ‘I’ll stick with you’. I asked for my theme everytime I felt being sucked into things. This because I am all to familiar with that feeling, an addictive feeling in my case, and if everytime I asked for it, the sucking stopped abruptly, comparable to being sucked backwards through a tunnel, and subsequently the next scene was there waiting for me. I’ve worked very hard!!! In the end I was exhausted! And I drew the conclusion in the hours afterwards and the next following day (after a night of sleep as I  hadn’t experienced in years) that although I hadn’t been swept away, I also had not given in to the experience.

Again later that day, I realised that although I had not given in, I did focus! And that was where I’ve progressed. Not being able to focus was the very foundation of all my problems.

 What is very special to me is that since this experience – now one week later – I have not diminished myself in whatsoever way even once. Something that in the past happened on a daily bases, now I can even believe that I am a good person! The situation in my day to day living has changed, also because my son has his holiday now, but I’m still convinced it’s because of the Voyage, because up until today I am interacting socially with people other than my child. Yesterday I confided to a friend of mine that if I have to make a Sacred Voyage twice a year in order to stop diminishing myself, I’ll be glad to do it!’

Gijs: ‘It is again an unexpected experience, that transforms all my negative issues into positive energy, and it allows me lots of insights on all those strange conditions in life… It was my 4th Voyage and it amazes me more and more, again I am one step closer to home.’

Edwin: ‘De Sacred Voyage has offered me what I need at this stage in my life. I was determined to heal my inner Child and it came to me that at this moment my life is nota bout that at all. I was instructed to start enjoying life. I am doing enough depressing heavy stuff and life can also be fun and lightweight! Ayahuasca invited me to surrender to life and jump into it without hesitation. The literal message I got was: ‘You’re doing enough stringing things, now go enjoy all the beauty in life!’ Besides this I have laughed a lot about and enjoyed all my inner critics. Every time a critical voice came by, the question ‘is this really true, and if so, does it matter?’ was laid before me. After paying attention to these thoughts, I could again surrender myself to the flow of the Voyage and the flow of life. The Voyage has made me more humble and taught me to bow down for life and my ego. This way my head and body can cooperate instead of being in contradiction. The Voyage has given me lots of life-energy and taught me that I am allowed to enjoy all that is. The most beautiful part of the process was finding the mildness and gentleness that Ayahuasca has given me. Not all is such a big deal, and I shouldn’t worry to much about things that in reality aren’t that important. Also the way Ayahuasca made its entrance I found astonishing. Very gently and full of compassion and love the layers of my ego were pealed. Lovely to experience and certainly tasting like more!’

Joy: ‘It was an incredible experience and again entirely different from last two times. This time there wasn’t a voice that seemed to come from outside telling me all sorts of things, but it came from inside. I have come to terms with my mother, something I thought I wasn’t really dealing with on this point in my life but apparently I was on a deeper level. It became clear why it had to be dealt with now even though I wasn’t actively participating in this subject. I wasn’t allowed to elaborate on that afterwards. […] I have started this Voyage with the intention of finding the source of my restlessness that was/is plaguing  me so much. It seemed I didn’t get an answer in these matters, but with time passing now I have gotten the answer and also part of the solution.

A bright green snake with a cats head appeared. Hey, I thought, finally I am allowed to meet a demon. So I invited the snake immediately after which he or she disappeared again. Another bunch of creeps showed their faces for just a little bit and every time I invited one of them they disappeared. There was one very timid little creature that just peaked around the corner but didn’t make further appearance. Finally I’ve seen the most beautiful colours and shapes and also a beautiful bright green field with cells completely at ease to show me Lyme disease is really over now.’

Freek: ‘I haven’t made such a hefty Voyage, but it was intensive, and I have had a lot to deal with. Now after a couple of weeks I clearly notice being much more positive in life. And also I feel much more free with fellow human beings. I stop for some chit chat more often. I’ve also started applying for a more interesting job and I was immediately hired. I can still feel it’s a thing in the make, but it’s going really well ’

Annemieke: ‘I’ve received very special answers to my questions, really something else from what I expected, but so very simple and obvious, that you’ve always known. I wanted to know how to get on my tracks again and I always look for something external, but I am the path, of course.’

Erica: ‘This was my second Voyage and it was totally different from the first one. Really you cannot compare. The first one was heavenly, this one was earth-like. Every time you get just that wat is fit for you at that exact moment in view of your own development, besides all that your own ego thinks about that. Ayahuasca is a potion with great wisdom…’

Marion: ‘Easygoing and tender Voyage with beautiful insights. Splendid light-experiences. And it helped my personal development a step further.’

Tanja: ‘This time my intention was to aim my attention at my body and that is exactly what happened. No colors or patterns, it was all very physical. Whenever I wanted to go to higher/more celestial levels,  with telepathic contacts like I have experienced frequently during earlier travels, a clear message came through to me: no, that is not your intention for today. Very beautiful this way!

So just body-conscience and being aware of what was happening there in my body. A word that came to me while moving my  legs was: holding back. I have always felt that I hold back while moving around and showing myself.  So, go dancing, go singing, just show myself! Also together with my girlish side which wants to be there with me, raving and joking around, being naughty, but in essence really wanting to really live. 
During my Voyage I have almost continuously moved my legs, pelvic area and hands as if I was dancing. One time I also wanted to stand up and dance, but unfortunately my body felt too heavy so I wasn’t successful there. It felt like freeing myself, I could show myself wonderfully without shame!’

Femke: ‘My third Ayahuasca experience……it was very beautiful. I have come in contact with the choice(s) which I have frequently made ‘with difficulty’. The feeling that something can only be worth it if it has been obtained with difficultly. When I saw this side of myself, again I was able to choose: with difficulty or with easy. Given I have already had enough contact with ‘difficult’, this choice was easy for me… Easy going! This felt very liberating and new. I felt that I am through with difficult. I was done with that. I got the feeling I again was at ground zero in my life. That was the main topic of my travel in a nutshell.
Furthermore I encountered many other things, one thing being nicer than the other one and the other way around. I have given some parts of myself the space they needed, such as: my femininity, the prostitute, the witch, the neat little girl, vanity, pride, competitiveness and still a couple more which I cannot easily recall at this moment. Fortunately it doesn’t feel as if that’s really necessary. Those sides of me are now welcome again. It felt surprisingly good giving ‘negative’  sides of myself some space.’

Jan: ‘Thanks for these life experiences and your extraordinary accompaniment on my Sacred Voyage!!’

Hari: ‘My body felt intensely purified, my spirit was full blown opened, and yes, in fact: a super good feeling. Three days have passed since then, and my sensations are coming in with more and more ease,  there is more rest in my abdomen and I feel superb. More space in my head, in the sense that the frequently fretful feeling there, is no longer active, and my vision seems to have improved up to today as well. Most important lesson for me is to give every feeling in the deeper layers some attention and love, without infinitely getting lost in the experiences linked to these emotions. Simply creating security and rests is what is happening, and it feels good. To conclude, thanks to everyone who supported me during my Voyage, and I whish all of you to have a radiant future!’

Erica: ‘I have experienced God and got to know his library, I got to know what ecstasy can feel like and how to fall through the shrouds of the ego. I went ahead with my battle with 'loneliness’, ‘listening’ and ' too little basic faith '. What I have learned by listening very humbly, is how easy loneliness and lack of basic faith can disappear and you find yourself supported by an immense flow of love. All this was possible because of your good, loving energy and spirits of the guides, Lars & Dani. I am still busy processing all this and storing it inside myself, instead of scattering all that energy outwards again.’

Kristin: ‘I feel that I get more and more joy in life, because apparently so much is solved in other layers of consciousness; cleansed, frozen pieces melt… less fears, less ' yes buts’, less being stuck in the head... Saturday night I had a headache, went to bed early, had delicious dreams… Got up on Sunday veeeery early, with enormous vitality, outside in the dead-quiet ’polder’(note of translator: type of Dutch landscape), no people, no cars. Only herons and all kinds of other strange magical animals, sounds and colors. So much good fortune... the complete day I  enjoyed playing and I got pleasure out of everything, being  hyper with energy. Also today, I worked very hard, but in awareness and love, light and full of humor, in the now... I wanted/expected to have a travel full of spectacular gate keepers and demons; however: the steps are smaller (?) and fantastic. I had a lot of contact with black shields obstructing me in my progress… I found it all right just to be there, without fighting or trying, just quietly accepting. I felt very good that Lars also confirmed that this was good... Thus the space behind the space is very tangible to me now, ever-present and inspiring, defying me all the time… It will all come to me in time!!! This way I experienced a deep level of my unique powerful nature... and I feel grateful… Wonderful finding you on my path...’

Eva: ‘It was a bitter experience for me. After all tales concerning how much love there is out there, and the possibilities for aid, and then the beautiful preparation session which we had; I had been looking forward to it a lot! It was a vexation not being able to journey; the experiences which I did find, however, were sorrow, anger and abandonment. No party for me, but work. Sunday still brought on another storm of emotions. That time also it was bitter, nasty and very hard work. 

Now we are 5 weeks further, thus I have more perspective. My Travel has amplified the movement already present in my life and has brought a number of obstacles in the flow. Anger experienced during travel and especially the day afterwards have shaken me to my core. Especially the stagnated relation between me and my mother have come up. By allowing anger I am more and more able to experience the pain under it […]The universe had good intentions in dealing with me, although it’s  timetable was not what I had expected.’  

Laurens: ‘I always find it difficult to explain what has happened exactly and what I’ve learned; in general that gets its own colour and deepens with time going by. This time especially peace and acceptance of ‘what is there’ came along. Especially after this Travel where it seemed not so much happened. To be and descent into the here and now, is something that goes with a deep rest and peace.’

Marlous: ‘I had expected to encounter all kinds of difficult parts of myself in an intense way. But to my surprise my travel was full of movement  and lust for life! Having faith in live is an important topic for me. That faith stayed with me during my whole journey, strong, fantastic! Why do I have such an appetite for adventure? My desire to travel and in fact all things in my life now, have been enforced and confirmed during my Voyage. That has supported my heart and encourages me to stay on the track I was on in my life… that is, to free myself and find more and more the strength inside’

Karin: ‘It was a very special experience. What has impressed me most, is that I have encountered my dark and light side. During my Voyage, darkness was more prominent than light. Yesterday however, I felt that it was exactly the other way around, I felt the light-side of me, and that it was larger than the dark-side. Friends told me I looked more open, radiant and more present.’ 

Freek: ‘Unfortunately, I have in fact not been able to Voyage.’

An: ‘Ayahuasca acts as even to the level of your DNA, and shows you the complete tale of what you carry inside, from an infinite number of generations. I to only had to look at it, and give it love, in order to bring healing into that tale, and stopping it from having influence on who I am unconsciously. And after I had been going through the misery of the tales locked up in my DNA, and had given them my  love,  the Ayahuasca  showed me why I  have chosen this DNA for this life. She showed me the strength of my father and the purity of my mother, after that I felt indescribably happy with this body of mine, which suits me completely, even though it feels limiting compared to the place where I was. And I felt my skin and it felt gentle and new, and I have never felt this alive, as if I had just been born, thanks to the Ayahuasca.’

Carine: ‘The  Voyage in itself for me was not pleasant, but all misery has come out and that is what is important to me. It was worth each nasty second. Nausea is still there a little (after two days), but the pain in my shoulders and head has disappeared. There is a kind of being at ease in me now. I can make complete contact with my inner child and silently I am rewriting our chapters, transforming the nasty memories to more beautiful ones, to give the love which she/I deserve... I cannot get it into words it all that well... I am immensely grateful to you for this present, for these new insights, for this unique experience, for this realization, for this contact with my hurt inner-child...’

Bass: ‘One weak later: The whole week I’ve felt considerably relaxed; a calm acceptance of everything that came on my way. Especially I felt physically purged and vigorous, a fantastic feeling. Even during physical heavy training I was not getting tired, where normally I feel that soup-fasting and Voyaging require a lot of energy so that I am some what restricted in my energy-level. That pleasant physical feeling translated itself also in a stable and strong ’conscious being’, I wouldn’t mind if I would stay with me indefinitely. I feel better while doing my work, have less resistance against all kinds of things and experience living my days with more pleasure. In this way I have seen my intention transformed to reality in a more indirect way than I had envisioned it before my Voyage. It is intriguing in particular to experience that Ayahuasca works there where and how it is needed, even though the normal consciousness isn’t able to grasp it and just wants direct results.’

Sharon: ‘I found this so far the most particular and pure experience of my life. I have got beautiful insights out of which I draw al lot of strength and energy. I want thank you for this beautiful experience. I feel much more secure about myself and still more I realize that I am worth it. I could not have given myself a more beautiful gift. What I really appreciate is that you have never tried to persuade to undertake a Voyage when I wasn’t yet ready for it. This time it  has really come from myself and I am proud that I have dared to make these steps. I was entirely open and that has really rewarded itself. Now I understand even better how proud you must be that you can give this to people. I am intensely grateful that I was allowed to enclose such kind, pure and sincere friends as you in my heart. Thanks for all support you have given me, through rain and sunshine!’
 

Wim: ‘The weeks after my Voyage, I am regularly aware of the fact that we live in an infinite time and space. Therefore we actually live in nothing. There are no limitations possible. And nevertheless in that nothing there is earth, and on it live a couple of billion people who all try very hard. To accomplish what? Then it has to be true that there’s an important reason for us being here. We do not have to clarify on that, we do not even have to study it. If we would be able, without religious intentions to see the beauty of it, imagine what would happen to us then?’ 

Ranil: ‘It was a completely clarifying experience and in fact too simple for words. For me it meant eventually that all was already present in myself. After my travel that did feel a little weird as well, because nevertheless I had gone into this with quite different expectations. Now, after a week or so, everything gets its rightful place. For me, this Voyage has also confirmed that the path I’ve chosen lately is really the right way for me.’

Rob: ‘The guidance during the complete experience was coordinated so well that I felt myself being served like a King. Especially the music that was played merged entirely with my Voyage. After my second glass of Ayahuasca the effect became well noticeable and it took back me to my parental house where I saw my toy section in the house chamber, complete with the lights on; the  warm and pleasant environment as I have experienced as a three-year old. There I  saw again the three-year old Robbie and in fact there was a type of embracing of me with him, that awakened very warm and gentle emotions in me. Hence my travel started and I have experienced many emotions which now I can only describe with key-words like: tenderizing, gratitude, amazement, deeply knowing and especially a deep sense of security.’

Femke: ‘Duringmy Voyage I have been able to heal a lot by means of my eyes. By means of something that felt like viscous water at times flowing all over my face without obvious reasons. Very beautiful. Furthermore I felt en experienced so much more, but it’s impossible to remember and formulate it all. In any case, I got to release an infinite amount, and got into contact with my true desires for this life. Now I hope I’ll be allowed to open my third chakra and let it flow freely; by incorporating all this into my life.’

 Max: ‘During the session I saw that all muscles in my body relaxed, which gave me a wonderful  feeling. This relaxed muscular feeling has remained after the travel up to this moment. I realized that my muscles have in fact been stretched and tensed for a lot of years already.’

Elly: ‘It has been very well, I´ve seen a lot and it was very gentle. I was a splendid woman and she danced the tango, flamenco or something else warm, sultry and feminine. There was a small sweet little girl on the dancing floor. That was me, I have taken her in my arms and given her lots of love, un-guilted her. My pain on the abdomen is gone. My pain in the abdomen, traumata stored there, I have touched and that hurted. But I have gone to it anyway and  that feels very good! There is a lot of love in me! Music was splendid.’

Peter: ‘Since my Voyage I have experienced much warmth and love. So much that I do not know how to handle it yet. I have more courage to take large steps and that is also what I have done. I have the sense that I am much more open and have started to share much more  with people. At the same time I am also much more sensitive, tears lie close to the surface, I frequently feel a little unstable and uncertain, and I feel a lot of  stress. It is like no stone of my house has remained in the same place. My organism still needs some time to settle down, to integrate this new form of conscience, and to go towards a new equilibrium.’

Gert: ‘At a given moment my awareness arrived at the bases of my social functioning. I was afraid of the other Voyagers, now I experienced the threat of others in it’s purest form. It was the only thing I could still feel. I was petrified with fear, couldn’t do anything anymore, only lie still and wait for it to go. But then all of a sudden I felt something like a very strong, comforting embracement. After that, the others where not frightening to me anymore. The pure fear had switched places with peace and love, like mother-love. I really felt like a baby. "So THIS is the famous mummy Ayahuasca!", I thought to myself, and I thoroughly enjoyed the moment.’

Tom: ‘Still now, days after the session, I can heal myself and feel souls very well. I have no problem with appearing in public. I have no more fear. I know that faith, humility and softness are beautiful things, and I can feel them and I... with I, I do not mean ego... I am soul... I am free... thanks to you plant, thank you aya...’

Kristin: ‘I had in fact already done a lot of work in the week before travel; fasting, taking rest, paying attention to my fears, examine what my questions should be. On the day itself to my stupefaction I met no demons or likewise, only tenderizing, tears with retrieving myself, my mother, my child, my parental house; I went up in timeless and imaging, splendid music; joy about loosing control without dying… After that I couldn’t sleep, I was hyper and tired… No problem though, simply lied down nicely... My Voyage has been over now for2 days and all just feels well... as if a large healing is taking place, a huge release of old… I feel like I am more at my place in my body, on this world, in the now… vital. Full of humor, lightness and in fact with faith regained in EVERYTHING…’

Carl: ‘I have drunk and seen, felt, laughed, cried, flown, I was buried in darkness, despair, madness and was reborn in the light of my own soul and the World Soul, I saw all recesses of the multiversum and spoke with the gods, I saw the infinite possibilities of the creative power both in negative and positive sense. In ecstasy I opened my heart for all this splendor and almost lost myself. Still, all through the experience, part of me remained distant and just observed while another part was completely engaged in an enraged ride in cosmic railway.  I became small and felt humble at so much wisdom and beauty, I have prayed for guidance in being able to handle this enormous inner strength.  Eventually I landed without side-effects or withdrawal-symptoms on the planet-surface, feeling glad also simply being able to be part of the normal three-dimensional world with all its restrictions and so called certainties.  Now, two days later, my body is still shimmering and at moments each cell of my being vibrates whereas I am doing my job and interact with other people as usual. My surroundings are noticing however, that part of me has become more alive and happy. The Critic inside me wonders however how long that will last. But deeply inside I believe that something essential inside me has been activated and healed, I have made a Sacred Voyage and never in my life will I forget that, it was a real Magical Mystery Tour. Moreover, I am feeling good about the fact that I have been brave and courageous for making this Voyage and that I have come through unharmed,  also the other travelers; they all came, one after the other, landing nicely on their feet, as if there was magic involved, almost simultaneous, which, I find a little peculiar, because during the Voyage you think at times it will never end, that you will never be able to return to the normal world. In those moments, the reassuring words of experienced Voyagers  have been very important to me (Lars and Dani, thank you again) in order to be able to surrender to what was going on, and stop myself from loosing it with panic. This is something you cannot explain with words, like the taste of honey, you must have tasted it yourself to understand it.  I can only hope and pray that of the number of people who will taste this will continue to extend, this world really has a need for it.’ 

Els: ‘Ayahuasca gave me the chance to work on my own healing process; absolutely no therapist or doctor ever was able to help me this way. Without this day, I would have had a difficult search ahead for many years to come!’

Maddie: ‘At last it was up to that point.. I could get by the customs authorities.. and went on my Voyage. I took nothing along, just left things behind. Trunks full of old emotions, physical pains, unprocessed passed experiences and fears for the now and about the future. I went on my Voyage and met: Myself.’ 

Albert: ‘A quiet but beautiful travel. Sensitive, beautiful, warm, experiences full of  love. In the days afterwards, hidden feelings came out: softness, joy, etc.. All in all a promising support in examining and processing old “trauma". For sure I’ll be travelling again soon.’

Jacintha: ‘The ayahuasca is still working in me. Now I feel it more and more on a cellular lever. Yes, wow, hurray. Outside everything is freezing up, I am thawing out and unfolding. Everything in the Universe wants live, to follow its instincts. To live it’s essence. Everything wants to see a reflection of itself as a confirmation of existence. Eternal quest for your own beauty. In total connection with this beauty is the realization of all being 1.’

Christien: ‘This Travel was one of love, faith, feeling secure, endless gratitude, tenderizing, emotional, loving… I have been able to laugh in a very freeing way. I have cried in gratitude and compassion. Not at all in pain. All pain-voices dissolved in the experience. I have enjoyed it! It was really my party. The most beautiful party so far in my life. I was that small little girl that lay in her crib experiencing her beautiful mental pictures and feelings of being connected and full of faith. I felt again the positive experiences of that little girl. And later I became the adult again. In fact I have repeated my life-journey. I have grown from a little girl to becoming-a-fully-developed-being-in-the-now.’

Yvonne: ‘I’ve been taken back in time, by a wise old woman, who in fact was me. Towards old tribes, Indians, caves, colors, wisdom, LOVE, and I got to see a part of all the suffering of all people throughout history. I was nothing but a small part of all that. There was such an infinite beauty to experience! I could really enjoy it. Afterwards I experienced grieve, where I "had" to go through 4x. This was very heavy and something told me that it was OK to end it, that it wasn’t necessary for me to go through it again, that I  deserved some rest (or something of that scope). Afterwards there was a lot of  love, I arrived in the soul of my children, saw how pure they are, but also the vulnerability and the sorrow of especially the eldest one. That I only have to give love, to receive, just to be, then all is well.’

Femke: ‘What I found very particular about Voyaging is being able to feel that you can let yourself be you. That each part of you simply wants to be seen and have some space just to be able to exist. Whatever piece that may be. By giving that recognition, just by looking and allowing existence, you heal yourself literally and figuratively.... and that is a magical and even holy experience for me.’

Maria: ‘I had a photograph of me as 3-4 year old person on my birthday, sitting in a marry-go-round, where I looked unhappy. Who am I and what am I doing here. The hurt child who was frightened felt responsible for everything. I wanted to ask her what her story was. Knowing that this child influences me still […] I asked for the inner child. The little girl from the marry-go-round told me proudly that she had made that glass plate. I was submerged in gratitude that in that way she had always protected me. We broke down the glass wall, but still then nothing could hurt me. The inner child with the wise little smile, everything will be alright, she emitted. I realized the wise old woman had always been in me. With that inner smile I submerged in love for everyone in the world. Nothing could harm me.’

Joy: ‘A couple days after my Sacred Voyage, an enormous book came to stand all around me, it really posted itself in front of everything, totally blocking my view on anything else. It had formed itself as a second skin. It’s message was obvious and I have thus gone to work with that. For years already this was my intention, but I have been stalling all that time. I quitted my old job. Afterwards still so much happened, incredible! Not even one week later I met ‘the man of my life’, after being instructed during my Sacred Voyage to end the old one properly. Beautiful isn’t it?’

Jan: ‘The picture that again and again came to me, was me as a small boy getting lost in the jungle and surviving it all. I got out as an adult warrior. I still stand outside the jungle, feeling astonished and overwhelmed by what just happened to me. But it feels very good and invigorating!’

Marion: ‘Very particular experience and a contribution to my development. As far as I can tell, I made a considerable step forwards. I still see illumination, no longer that bright, but nevertheless. It’s pleasant to be able to recall that. I am still receiving insights a I remember everything often. This Voyage is still with me.’

Gijs: ‘It was my first travel, I had of no idea of what it would be like... But it turned out to be an ultimate experience which after two days is still keeping me fully occupied.. I’ve got rid of a lot of held-back emotions, and I feel a lot more relaxed/quiet than before…’

Karien: ‘This Voyage was a revelation for me and eventually one grand party.
It has brought a new dimension to my life and some grounding, which I missed previously. This Voyage is a mirror of my soul and I felt how much soul-contact I have with others. I was inaugurated; inaugurated in what life is in its core.’

Peter: ‘..... I know now that living should be one big celebration!! To die is being born again.’

Marie-José: ´The pain in my neck? Of tension and a whiplash? Of stress and  blockades? What pain? Was there any pain to begin with? I am not completely through with all of it, and that I am aware of. But from now on, I am in touch with myself. It was violent, spicy, very spicy, but the reward...!!!!!!!!!’

Jan h.: ´What a splendid thing, the Sacred Voyage. To me it is also something really holy.

Nothing, no game of going through a therapist-client relation, no disturbing factors of that kind, but simply follow your own inner wisdom. Fantastic.’
 

Jan: ´Thousand times thanks for the (Thank God)  unforgettable experience of this Sacred Voyage. How can I explain that small Jan is back, that large Jan has become another person, himSelf, that the world is now THE place to be, safe and full of challenges that I only have to jump into as if being a curious child? Spectacularly I found the guides, "as if" they were directly controlled by the Universe itself (which in a way is the case of course). It creates child like curiosity to a new Voyage...’ 

Lucas:

‘Large experiences root in the core of your soul, you feed on them, they devour you, they are able to transform cold to warmth, transform fear to love, distance to feeling close.’

Ayahuasca is about  honoring  and creating. It’s not a case of “is there a God”, but how to find him in ourselves, what is inhibiting us, what is helping us, to find were we are truly warm and cold dead only exists in our imagination.

Ayahuasca is about movement, cells, body parts, former experiences and convictions which formerly were in forgotten rooms inside ourselves, banging the door in order to be remembered, to bring them to life and honor them as parts of ourselves. Ayahuasca is about coming home.’

Erica: Because God knew that I could never do justice to the beauty of  things, he gave me a voice. To be able to sing it.’

I hope that sometime I will sing it for all of you

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André: ´Everything, everything, everything, everything, everything is complete. Living is a fairy tail but for REAL. Of intense sorrow, by means of intense love, to intense strength, and to intense rest, to end up at intense Solidarity…..’

Josien: ‘I found it to a fantastic experience to let go entirely this way, I was able get into it completely, in such a loving and safe environment. I have acquired an enormous amount of energy and it really was a healing Voyage.’ 

Corinne: ´Well, I can tell so many beautiful things about this, but really it cannot be described in words. The message which I have clearly received: live life in all its intensity and then you’ll arrive at your destination.’

Janek: ´What I have experienced in fact can hardly be put into words, but what I can say is that never in my life I have  experienced such a feeling of LOVE.’

Ben: ‘I have given myself a grand present and am very, very satisfied with the result.’

Joke: ´I was allowed to heal myself as a result of which I feel more stable one way or the other.’

Yet: ‘It was a very peculiar experience to me. Thank you a lot  for this beautiful experience, in spite of the fact that I had expected it to be more brutal, but I accept it the way it is, and afterwards a whole lot of things have surfaced nevertheless.’

Ria: ´Beautiful room, comfortable environment in which I felt safe: warm decoration, light, candles, the fountain, invited to surrender myself entirely.’ 

Elisabeth: ‘In case Lars is a little asshole as he proclaims, then by his leading the session, that is completely annihilated. I find him a beautiful, large, affectionate person.’

 
Engbert: ´A door was opened to another dimension, as a result I was able to look through time and relive things, I felt enormously connected with this spiritual entity. I have enjoyed the right kind of music.’ 

Mark: ´It becomes a little boring maybe,  but you are really awesome people! You are ' real ', to my opinion you accompany the Voyagers from the heart. Moreover you are allowing Voyagers express themselves as they need.’

Brigitte: ´I can tell you such bizarre tales concerning what I have already experienced . My life has been really thrown upside down by Voyaging with you. A magical sauce has been mixed into my life, as a result of which I understand so much, I have so many insights, dreams etc., I have recovered my strength and I am now able to fully enjoy my life.’